[It's not entirely Shoka being dead that Siffrin's thinking about, when they say lonely. It's being alive first, and walking into the water, and knowing nobody would come looking. But even though they open their mouth -]
[What would they even say? That they know what that feels like? Sure, kind of, maybe. Aimless, empty, looking for any reason to keep going, anyone who would remember them. But they didn't entirely know what they were missing until they had it, and then the loops happened, and it was gone again -]
[...so, how much worse must it have been to be Shoka, an actual person put together of pieces she could remember, and to know what she was lacking the whole time? It has to have been harder to bear. It's what made them crumble.]
[And how are they supposed to even say any of that?? The words would never come out.]
[They shut their mouth. And wish long for their hat again, to hide behind.]
[...but it feels lonely, too, to be brought back by someone just to play a game. Siffrin's tail twitches. Finally, hesitantly, they ask:] ...was the game for anything? [It must have been, right, some purpose. To go out of your way to bring in ghosts for it.]
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[What would they even say? That they know what that feels like? Sure, kind of, maybe. Aimless, empty, looking for any reason to keep going, anyone who would remember them. But they didn't entirely know what they were missing until they had it, and then the loops happened, and it was gone again -]
[...so, how much worse must it have been to be Shoka, an actual person put together of pieces she could remember, and to know what she was lacking the whole time? It has to have been harder to bear. It's what made them crumble.]
[And how are they supposed to even say any of that?? The words would never come out.]
[They shut their mouth. And
wishlong for their hat again, to hide behind.][...but it feels lonely, too, to be brought back by someone just to play a game. Siffrin's tail twitches. Finally, hesitantly, they ask:] ...was the game for anything? [It must have been, right, some purpose. To go out of your way to bring in ghosts for it.]