[There's a pause, then a slight, upward ripple of movement just under the head of her disguise—the approximation of a shrug.]
Being dead wasn't so bad. Less lonely than being stuck on repeat and not being able to tell anyone about it... [Less lonely than being alive had been for her, too.] It's not like I was the only dead girl invited to the party. And I even kinda liked it at first. Some of the things I could do... They were pretty sick, honestly.
[Telewarping, summoning Noise, using psychs—they all made her feel powerful, for once in her not-life. Also for the first time, she hadn't been alone. She'd had Shiba, Ayano, Susukichi, Kaie—fellow "ghosts", people who understood and looked out for her. Friends; a family, maybe. But then...
But then things had changed. They changed, even though Reapers weren't supposed to be designed for that. In the end, she supposes she did wind up alone again.]
... Yeah. No clue why they picked me, but... There was this game they had me play. For the deceased only.
[She wonders, though not with much seriousness. If Siffrin doesn't know why all the repeating happened to them, could someone have been just playing with them, too? Testing them, like Shinjuku's Composer was her?]
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Being dead wasn't so bad. Less lonely than being stuck on repeat and not being able to tell anyone about it... [Less lonely than being alive had been for her, too.] It's not like I was the only dead girl invited to the party. And I even kinda liked it at first. Some of the things I could do... They were pretty sick, honestly.
[Telewarping, summoning Noise, using psychs—they all made her feel powerful, for once in her not-life. Also for the first time, she hadn't been alone. She'd had Shiba, Ayano, Susukichi, Kaie—fellow "ghosts", people who understood and looked out for her. Friends; a family, maybe. But then...
But then things had changed. They changed, even though Reapers weren't supposed to be designed for that. In the end, she supposes she did wind up alone again.]
... Yeah. No clue why they picked me, but... There was this game they had me play. For the deceased only.
[She wonders, though not with much seriousness. If Siffrin doesn't know why all the repeating happened to them, could someone have been just playing with them, too? Testing them, like Shinjuku's Composer was her?]